My name is Jen

Fuck this heat.

so much has changed. im different. you’re different. they’re different. life is constantly changing and taking you to new places. i may not be where i want to be yet but I do think im in a good place right now. i hope you are too. 

life is love and love is beautiful. 

sometimes you’re better off when you keep your mouths closed. It keeps your foot out of there. 

Stop trying to be cool and tell me what you think I want to hear and just be real. 

For you to come and sweep my off my feet already

It breaks my heart that Kobe is sick right now and I’m here in Florence without the power or ability to do anything about it. So far I have enjoyed every minute of my time here and haven’t regretted anything about being here but knowing that my dog is sick and I can’t be there hurts, and it’s the one time since I’ve been here that I’ve wished I could be home. 

Did last night/this morning really happen. If so, holy fuck someone should have documented that shit.

• 3 different essay revisions
• 1 humanities essay
• 1 edited essay
• the closing paragraphs of another
• and one completely from scratch.

What the fuck was I on. Next time I think I’ll skip the coffee and desire to help others.

I’m about to have my second cup of coffee and I have 3-4 more papers to do. Its 10 pm and I’m about to start another one, so far I’ve gotten two done. I feel good though, I’m on a working high, if you’re a writer you know what I’m talking about. My fingers are beyond ecstatic to be dancing along the keys on my laptop. Not sure why but it may have something to do with the snow we had today. Not much of it but enough to put me in the happiest state of mind ever. It was the cherry on top of this love cake I’ve built for the city of Florence.

Oh and ps, I think i’m over mr. italian boy. that wasn’t long but in my eyes it was already an eternity. I dunno, there’s still of window of opportunity there for me to change my mind but I think I’m good haha.

Cheers to a night of writing. Since I’m not in the Newsroom right now I had to put in my late nights somewhere!!! Hahaha

xoxo

Jen

Sometimes life’s hard and it sucks big time. Nothing seems to go right, once you start thinking everythings going your way something comes up and smacks you right in the face.

People come and go, money burns right through your pocket and deadlines/due dates are always around the corner.

But you know what, I don’t care. I know it could always be ten times worse and if it doesn’t kill me then why should I waste any time worrying about it.

Everything is temporary, nothing is forever.

Shit always goes down, the only difference is how you react to it.

I am so thankful for my mom. We might not always be the best of friends but no matter what she’s always there. Dude, unconditional love is amazing. It always there no matter how many times you fuck up or try to get away from it.

The taste on my mouth from the salt of my tears is a reminder that I’m human. No one has ever surprised me more than my mother and I feel so lucky to have her. I’d be nothing without her.

So no matter what situation I seem to find myself in I will always find my way out because I know that the situation itself will pass and waiting for me will always be my mom.

I love you mommy.